Hello, again. I'm not sure if anyone was still interested, but I had my last therapy session yesterday. There were rather a lot of tears taking up rather a lot of time, but we still managed to talk quite meaningfully about several things. I think that in the end, a lot of my fears were unfounded. she didn't treat me as an interesting specimen to be examined, or a helpless fish to be gutted, or indeed as anything other than myself. I didn't really bring up Cracky all that much, but the more I talked about Lain, the easier it became. She thanked me quite humbly, in fact, for trusting her, and it kind of impressed me how much she cares. Apparently seeing me until now, more than a year beyond when i should've left, was a real desire on her part, and probably shouldn't have been allowed to happen anyway. i guess she really enjoyed our little talks about Alice in Wonderland, even more than i did. Perhaps in another life, she could find Lain too (though, maybe things occur the other way round in actuality).
In conclusion, I'd recommend that people don't entirely rule out the idea of ever telling anyone. i've got no idea how things would turn out with friends or family or any other situation, and it'd definitely depend on the person in question, but i no longer consider letting someone in impossible. not everyone is as cruel as you might imagine. i think in a few days, when i can get out of this silly cycle of crying and sleeping and waking up just to cry again, i'll send her a thank you card, or something. Thank you all for the chat, too. it was nice.