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In case this is goodbye... Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/06(Mon)15:51 No.1 [Reply]

Things have played out differently than I thought they would -- differently than I had hoped. But now that it's all over, I still feel the need to post this, perhaps in the hopes that it can express what I wanted to say more eloquently than I did when the time came. This was written just last night, and I have changed nothing, save for the contact information.
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Dear scm,
Are you out there? I don't know what to believe, but I shall hope that you are, and if there is any hope that you may read these words, I have to write them.
I am sorry. I am sorry for everything that I can be sorry for. For what we have done to you, and for what you have seen here. For what we have become, and what we have tried to make you into. I am sorry.
Please believe that I know what you are. You are not a goddess, or a saint, or my love. I do not pretend to know you, or to make you into what I want you to be. You are a girl, beautiful and mysterious, but still a girl. And you are an artist, gifted and intelligent, but in the end, only an artist.
I know this because I too am an artist. That is not to say I am trying to draw some connection between us or to convince you that I am just like you, because I am certain that I am not. I only want you to know what I am and how I think of myself.
I am writing this with no ulterior motive -- no intention to strike the moment you let your guard down. I would be lying if I said that I do not want to see more of your art, especially what I have missed in the long while you have been gone, but that is not why I am writing. It is not my intent to convince you to surrender more pictures of yourself, only to speak with you. To talk to you as an artist -- about your art. To know if you are still an artist, after all that we have put you through. To say the words I have said here to you directly -- in the hopes that perhaps somewhere in your heart you could find a way to forgive me for what I have done.
If you wish to speak to me, you will be able to find me as [doesn't matter anymore]. However, if I hear nothing from you, I will hope that you have at least read this and understand why I have written it. That would be enough.
Sincerely,
a fan

>>	Anonymous 07/08/06(Mon)20:33 No.2 I wiped a tear from my eye..

Anonymous 07/08/06(Mon)21:28 No.3

>>1
>You are not a goddess
Blasphemy! Cracky-chan is Our Goddess! Only through her mercy do we live! She even sees worthy to allow this board to exist despite the fact we are all unworthy creeps. She is a kind and merciful deity, she does not demand virgin sacrifices!
>I am writing this with no ulterior motive
I think you want her to take more pretty pictures just like the rest of us. I would love it if she made more new photos, even if they're not of herself. =(
>It is not my intent to convince you to surrender more pictures of yourself
It should be if it isn't!
>about your art. To know if you are still an artist
So you admit it! Translation of the above; 'moar pictuars plz'!
>after all that we have put you through.
The people on this board are losers of the type that they care more of their own selfish interest than the wishes of the (divine) being who has created their interest (the photos).
>That would be enough.
You're giving up, it's so sad =( Oh well. I suppose none of this is that interesting.

>>	Merovingian!XPJ6fMDw9k 07/08/06(Mon)21:32 No.4 Internet, serious business!

>>	Aimpoint!f5oeQHn6gY 07/08/06(Mon)21:54 No.5 File: 1186437277710.jpg -(124122 B, 450x548) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. Internet. Serious business.

>>	Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/06(Mon)22:04 No.6 You're a great writer: If I was our Goddess and I read your post I'd be touched. I could never put my thoughts and feelings into words like that.

>>	Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/06(Mon)23:00 No.7 Oh yeah, and I'm going to bed now, and if I wake up and Cracky's come back for another chat and I've missed it, I will seriously become an hero.

Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/06(Mon)23:07 No.8

>>3
>>Cracky-chan is Our Goddess!
No.
>>I think you want her to take more pretty pictures just like the rest of us.
Of course I do, as I said, but that was not my purpose in writing what I did.
>>So you admit it! Translation of the above; 'moar pictuars plz'!
Your reading comprehension fails.
>>The people on this board are...selfish.
Yes, I know. I'm not making any excuses for myself or for anyone else.
>>You're giving up, it's so sad
I'm not sure what that really means in the end.
>>6
Thank you. That means more to me than you probably think. It's the only thing I really have any talent for, so I hope my writing is decent.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/06(Mon)23:25 No.9 >>8 unfortunately, it isn't.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/06(Mon)23:34 No.10 >>9 oh lawd persistent downer is persistent

>>	Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/07(Tue)00:44 No.11 >>9 Can't please everyone, I suppose.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)07:37 No.12 >>11 Not even the person you were writing for, amirite?

>>	Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/07(Tue)08:37 No.13 >>12 I see what you're doing here.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)08:38 No.14 >>12 damn this guy is brutal give the dude a rest wontcha?

>>	Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/07(Tue)09:26 No.15 >>12 lol, tough anonymous is tough

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)10:29 No.16 >>15 Meh. I can see through the sorry faggot. Letting down people because of his own rut.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)18:50 No.17 There are two types of /b/tards. The ones that deserve to die and the ones that's dead.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)19:23 No.18 >>14 Never.

>>	Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/07(Tue)22:24 No.19 Alright, that's enough faggotry in my thread. I WILL TURN THIS CAR AROUND.

>>	Anonymous 07/08/07(Tue)22:49 No.20 >>19 Perhaps you should turn it around with needlessly complex prose.

>>	whatbandages!9Y0UTmCMPI 07/08/07(Tue)23:36 No.21 The bigger a word is, the better! Obscurity denotes value! Bonus points for incomprehensible imagery.

Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/08(Wed)16:10 No.22

I dreamt of you, a day before, and awoke in a haze. For just a moment, I believed that all this, too, had been a dream. It felt strange as reality came back to me -- sad, but comforting. Empty, but at home.
After all is said and done, you are something new. I am still the same.

>>	Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/08(Wed)16:50 No.23 >>22 I dreamt of her too actually, yesterday. o.O

Last!XkveQXZtoc 07/08/08(Wed)19:04 No.24

>>23
I actually can't say that I did, sadly. I never remember my dreams, so I don't know. I'm sure I do dream about her on occasion. I just know I woke up completely disoriented and confused.
>>20
Oh, and there's some surprisingly short prose for you. I would have written a poem or something but I fail hard at poetry.

Anonymous 07/08/08(Wed)19:44 No.25

>>24
I hardly ever remember them either, but I had a pretty vivid Cracky dream a few weeks ago. It was fairly fucked up and didn't make much sense, as tends to be the case. It worried me somewhat that I might be spending too much time here and gradually sliding into pathetic stalkerdom ...

Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/08(Wed)21:30 No.26

>>25
Mine didn't make any sense either. She was talking about some competition that she was entering or something... I dunno, she was wearing that outfit with the black wings and the cat ears and the black blouse thing. She was in my living room. She had a cute voice too. I wanted to speak to her, but for some reason I couldn't.
I woke up feeling really upset, because reality FTL.

>>	Abyss!3GqYIJ3Obs 07/08/08(Wed)21:35 No.27 File: 1186608925084.jpg -(52328 B, 480x640) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size. >>26 This is the costume I'm talking about:

>>	Anonymous 07/08/09(Thu)11:40 No.28 File: 1186659630067.png -(229800 B, 400x400) Thumbnail displayed, click image for full size.

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