#4

it just got a bit too much.

Oh, why.

The pavement looks european.

Last, you are alright in my book.

Its strange, we are all a little broken. We are all here because of a shared respect and love for someone who uses Her art to hold up a mirror to this fucked up world. The ones that really care about Lia look into thew twisted mirror and just see themselves.
I'm bad at expressing myself.
The world sees Cracky a someone who is going for an image, a scene if you would. We see ourselves, our dreams, fears, hopes, and happiness.
I can't handle that sometimes, some of you may have felt the same way. We love Her and hate ourselves, until it becomes to much and we start to attack others because they can't understand Her as you do.
That's bunk, we are here because we do see ourselves the same way, but we don't want to feel like just another face in the crowd, we want to be special at least in Her eyes.
Fuck
I'm no good at this, some of you use poetry to describe this twisted reality we have made, some use faith, some art. Me I 'm not smart enough or creative enough to express what I'm trying to say, but I think it comes down to this. We are brothers, no not in the Sky Queen way(even though some see it that) way, but in a mind, and heart. We are the bastard children of a world that is beautiful and terrifying. I know you Last even though I've never talked to you. I love you because I know you. Not the details, not your history or your likes or anything as petty as that. The real you that hurts and is lonely, the strength and passion that makes the world seem like the greatest game in the world. The you that is a person and found something that inspired and possessed you and made you who you are today.
Okay thats as sentimental as I get. Don't let the bad things take you over and drive you crazy, because that is a hard road to walk. Be happy and love Her with all your heart.
I like to think in a way She does care about us and thats why She watches. She doesn't get involved because She is to scared of getting hurt.
Thats all.

>>6
I believe we are on the same page here.

>>7
Sorry I could express myself better

>>6
QFT

>>6
tl; dr
sup we are clinically insane

>>6
It's like looking at a little whatbandages, except now instead of over two years ago and just getting into the whole mess. Makes me a little sentimental, myself.

Well not really.

>>11
Well you know it's what we were skirting around when we were talking last night. Almost everyone of us is fucked up in a deeply rooted way. Now i just need to take the two hours of batshit crazy typing I did last night after we talked and mold it in to a understandable doctrine.

>>12
Fucked up because we are so attached to her, or attached to her because we are so fucked up?

What if the cracky that existed three years ago is not the same anymore? Are you infatuated with a shadow of the past? In fact it is more likely than you think. You are all older than 14, and you all know that the age 13-15 is a time when girls begin to explore their effect on the other gender. Dont you remember that girl in your class with the slightly awkard make up trying to seduce you with her cuteness? Cracky did it so much better. And she did on the web with added nerd appeal.

But you also know that three years later everything was/is different. And so is Lia. You keep a shadow of her past alive.

>>14

Srsly, one should not invoke the shadows of the past. I just remembered one of the mentioned girl with "awkard make up". She is my own Cracky. I just looked her up on the web again, which was a mistake. She managed to follow her childhood dreams of helping others. At the same time she is one of the most intelligent (proven), beautiful and humble women I know.

Shadows of the past keep chasing me.

>>6
qft

>>14
Yeah, I guess, but I believe in growing to maturity, not in sudden changes in personality. Lia must still surely be Lia, even if the way in which she chooses to manifest herself has changed.

>>15
I wish I'd had the opportunity to watch someone like that grow up. That's what keeps me hankering after Cracky I guess. If I could just see a picture of her graduating University a couple years down the line with a smile on her face, then it would all be completed happily for me.

>>16

Lia may be Lia, but Cracky is not Lia.

I also think you are idealizing her slighty. Will she even attend university?

>>17

She is currently at a University of California. She quit briefly after the boyfriend she was living with broke up with her, but now she is back after a semester off.

She digs chicks now mostly.

>>18

Lies

What many of you seem to be missing is that we are not all here for the same reason. Not everyone is here to fawn over the Cracky of the past. I know as well as any of you that much of that person is gone. I can live with that.

>>18

Why on earth are you trying to seed the rumor that she is in california? This did not pop up for the first time.

There are almost no /b/tard at Cal universities, so the chances we'd know about it right after frog week are close to zero.....

>>21

frosh

>>20

I guess that is generally accepted. Why are you here? Because I am not quite sure anymore. I just archived my cracky folder.

>>23
Because I am mentally ill and emotionally crippled. And I am clinging to people who are similarly crippled.

>>24

That surely is a noble cause. In before circlejerk singularity.

>>13
"Which came first," you may ask, "the chicken or the egg," you may ask. Neither I tell you no one came till the rooster did.

>>26
looool