What I said eralier. I dunno what I was thinking. When it's dark here, like 1 or 2. It's only 6 or 7 in England. So everyone is asleep there...and asleep here. So I don't have anyone to remember for me, but I'm sure I have to talk to someone to get it all out. I wish it was evening in Europe...or evening in America. I knoew it's ahppening now, I just need someone to talk to. This shit sucks, I'm scared to go
I built whole system to hepp me backin the day but then I usd that system to do other things/ So now what does it do? Does it help mow? No, it's too far apart, the people have spread out.
SO I can go visit places, and know ties of people, but what can help me now? Nothing, I cant even drink. I can't read, I can't sleep, I can't go anywher, I can'td rive, I can barely think. I used to love the night, it was miy time of epntiness, when I was all alone with my idols and demonss. Now it just seems so long until monring. I need hot, glaring sunliht to keep me here till it's night time n europe and the sun sets here. Just 12 hours...no more. That's all I need.
At least this helps, writng this down, trying to read the words, trying to think in lines.
But it's fucking cold, and the lights are so faek, I just really want them off, want to lie down. I wish I could read a boook or watch tV, but that would be teh same as sleep.
Its so hwar being here, I should just let go and try to remember next iem, just to let it be good again. I can't do until tomorrow night, that's so far away, a dark eternity even until dawn. i will wait though, se hwo long ti sakes
Sso, this is it, I guess, if twenty minuts took so logn, I can't make it hours, I'm sure.
See you guys later, when I'm humbeld and broken, when all my wods and money are sucked away, like the dogshit they are. What was the stpuid point, i shold hve now this day wuld fome I should have known this day wold come I can't really read thiese words, so I'm sorry.
Maybe in a few days i;ll piss you all off gain, who kows, but I Might now feel like it.
i'm so mad, I'm so fucking mad, justs...just just filled with rage, buring, awful rage
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