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samefag lolol

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samefag accusing himself of being samefag
i am also samefag
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oh god oh good god i have wasted my life

I only turned 16 in April, and yet it really does feel like it's all over.

BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE OVER? WHAT IS A MAN IF NOT A MISERABLE LITTLE PILE OF SECRETS?

fuck knows. iwrhruerhueurhwer/

I feel so disconnected from everything, from reality, from life. I'm just an observer. None of this can possibly be real. None of this can possibly be for me. Everyone creeps me out now. I hate them. I hate when they smile. I hate the creepy half-moon shaped smiles.

I hate leaving the house. I like my dog. I do like my dog, yes. And my cat. I do not think I would go outside, if it were not for my dog.

Yet there's no need for this. I have a girlfriend now. She's my first real one ever. And I honestly think I love her. Everyone says that at my age, yes, yes, but this is not a chavvy "i luv u enjoy ur argos jewelerry lets go to benidorm lol" love. I don't know what kind it is.

It's not teenage love. It's not even really romantic love. Even if we weren't in a relationship, I think it'd be the same. I feel such an intense adoration for this girl now. Why the fuck is she interested in me? I'll never understand. And she knows that, too. It feels like a dream. I'll probably wake up soon. In a way I hope I do.

god this is such immense faggotry. I thought about killing myself this morning. No real reason. It just seems like the right thing to do. Anything I achieve in life is always weighted down by this intense feeling of hopelessness and futility. So what's the point in keeping going, really?

I dunno what I'll do next year. I could leave school and go to any university that'll be stupid enough to take me. Or stay the whole way and give myself another year of lazing around. I like the second one, but they both have their perks.

oh fucking hell laurraa jesus christ i love you so fucking much. The more I think, the more I sound like a walking cliche, but I really can't explain it. I love every ounce of your body. Even the bad kidney. I love you more than Lia. More than myself. More than anyone.

and you know as well as me that this isn't just a case of me grasping on to the first girl who gave me any interest. since last year i had been completely prepared to spend years, maybe forever, in total solitude. I wasn't looking for anyone. I didn't want anyone. You were the only one who could pull me out of that. Not the only one who tried. But the only one who succeeded.

all i ever think is why? why the fuck do you want me? why do you ask me to go out so much, when i rarely show you the true passion i feel for you, out of fear of looking weird? why make such an effort? why not realise i'm a fucking waste of space?

you said i'm like a puzzle. the truth is, the only enigma here is you. Me? I'm just mentally imbalanced. I know that. That's not mysterious or cool. But you... I have no idea.

Sometimes I do genuinely wonder if I've made you up in my head. Tyler Durden, if you will. But then why does my mum ask if I'm "out with Laura" when I leave the house? Is she as neurotic as me? Or fuck, is she imaginary too? Is this? Am I typing real words here? Is anyone really reading this? what the fuck is wrong with me ohm y godfl fuckkk

I've just got to get my shit straight, really. I hate feeling like this. It only happens occasionally. I'm fine most of the time. Sometimes even happy. Or, well, content is more apt. But it seems that for as joyous as I can get at certain points, I'm never going to escape this horrible feeling of emptiness which creeps up on me at these times.

The sky outside is beautiful. I love how unreliable British summers are. Last night it was bright as ever at this time - tonight it's verging on pitch black.

Laura; you are the only thing in my life that really matters anymore.

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gb2psychiatrist

>i rarely show you the true passion i feel for you, out of fear of looking weird

That's the only thing wrong, and of importance in all your blabbering, the rest is just normal for a 16 yo.

>Laura; you are the only thing in my life that really matters anymore.

Go tell her NAO

Finally, a decent thread in this shithole.

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Can I join this decent thread?

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No

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Why not? Feel too good for me?

memories

what is this shit?

>>16
Telling her isn't usually a great idea. Women only chase what runs away (until they decide differently... it's complicated)

I read all this. I sympathize. What gets me though is that this fellow is 16, which means for him Cracky is "The Older Woman"

lol Now I feel really old

I honestly don't remember posting any of this.

it's just hormones lol
wait till you're out of puberty, in a couple years.

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I'm 17 now, heh. Still with Laura, lost interest in Cracky. IRL love made it very easy to abandon any .jpg infatuation I ever had. Feels good man.

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if OP is telling the truth , (and let's just assume yeah) then let this be a lesson to all of you.

A+ thread. Would recommend to a friend. 5/5

And here I am, still alive.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y6ljFaKRTrI

09/05/05

"I'm 17 now, heh. Still with Laura, lost interest in Cracky. IRL love made it very easy to abandon any .jpg infatuation I ever had. Feels good man."

15/02/02

"And here I am"

Well, at least you tried. No one ever stops loving Cracky though, but deep down, you already knew that.

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