Yet there's no need for this. I have a girlfriend now. She's my first real one ever. And I honestly think I love her. Everyone says that at my age, yes, yes, but this is not a chavvy "i luv u enjoy ur argos jewelerry lets go to benidorm lol" love. I don't know what kind it is.

It's not teenage love. It's not even really romantic love. Even if we weren't in a relationship, I think it'd be the same. I feel such an intense adoration for this girl now. Why the fuck is she interested in me? I'll never understand. And she knows that, too. It feels like a dream. I'll probably wake up soon. In a way I hope I do.