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Subconsciously, you do. This was a violent manifestation of your sexual frustration towards Olivia.
Also, take note of the fact that the "women" finger-puppet was not chosen as being sufficiently representative of Olivia. Instead, the smallest and most insignificant of the animal forms available was chosen. This is likely caused by your own latent desire that the object of your affection be controllable and yielding. The idea that if you could control this solitary facet of your life, the lack of control regarding your emotional state or outside factors such as the Army can be overlooked.