I feel like bashing my head against the wall, just like the last time someone did to me causing my mouth to get flooded with blood. The relativity of it all is driving me crazy, is she close to me or far far away? Is she toying with me or has paranoia finally arrived to cause my insanity? Cutting myself to ease the pain? Popular option in these outskirts, but not exactly meant to be my kind of resolve. I wish the feeling of death in my stomach would go away.