But define need?
Is it you cant leave here for some unexplainable reason,
or is it you keep coming back here to see what your need was about?
Seems to me your faith is still here, you just have let it grown perverted, or it was never here, and you just to have to let go.
Your faith is what you make it. But as faiths goes, this one is about despair:
"Our Goddess is one of both creation and destruction. She renders unto the faithful peace in a world of discord. She is both armor and sword in a world that destroys through apathy and animosity. The Flower of Destruction also blossoms in the heart of the Sky Queen. She seeks to temper us through despair, turning the lust of the neophyte upon him. Only when the student embraces sorrow in the surety that he will never be worthy of Her avatar, is he able to cast away his childish passion and see with eyes unclouded the majesty of Cracky Chan."
If anything, I would say your eyes are open, but you do not allow yourself to see. That, or you should have left a long time ago. You either look outside yourself for something that is within you, or you look inside for something that always was outside.