That.

i know how you feel

The person who took the pictures, most likely.

But that is her memory.

I wonder what kind of sentimental value that possessed.

>>5
It's exactly what you think it is.

Did you know she used to hide her journal in that bear.

I wish I could read it. To know her a little better.

>>7
D'aww.

>>8
"i don't know if this was mentioned as i just skimmed through this, but there's always the traditional under-the-floorboards/carpet. or my own favourite for small notebooks and diaries: inside stuffed animals. i have some left over from childhood still malingering in my room, so i made a slit in the bottom of one, took out some stuffing and safety-pinned it together again each time. sounds wacky but so far there's been no trouble with my own parents, which wasn't always the case when i chose more obvious hiding places.

hmm...maybe though, could i point out that asking yout mother not to read your diary is probably tempting fate? unless she bought the subject up. ..."

;_; I want to know who this girl grew up into

>>7

That's a rabbit.

>>9

Jesus. I was on those forums around 2004. Realizing this gave me shivers. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. This is overwhelming me pretty bad right now. Fuck. I never realized I've been so close to her. To her.

>>9
Oh no.
; _ ;

"eheh, do you reckon this would work with any inanimate doll-like object? only i sometimes sleep with a stuffed animal under my duvet and have occassionally been known to hold long conversations with it at night tounge1 and as i firmly beleive in the powers of placebo, i may try this. oh, and dreamaddict, i really like the idea of writing your intentions down and putting it inside the doll...

er, anyway, if this yields any LD, i shall say."

omg so cute

"...apart from bands that were already mentioned like radiohead, tool, nine inch nails (i love falling asleep to the instrumental/melodic tracks off "the fragile") another band that are really, unh, slumbersome is sigur ros. they're from iceland (i think, possibly it's some other nordic country) and they make this wonderful kind of hazy murmury drifty sounding music.....mmm, also i do like moby a lot, various bits and pieces of trance/ambient, aswell the soundtrack to "serial experiments lain" (perhaps because it reminds me of the anime, which in itself is quite surreal and dreamlike sometimes).....oh, and mogwai!"

I think I did a bad thing by posting that text word for word. I finally had something of her, and I didn't know if anyone else had it. It seemed special, like a treasure. I spent the last few weeks reading it before bed hoping to LD of her.

Now I know how rar holding assholes feel when they release a pic. There is something empty inside of me. Like a I betrayed someone very close to me and lost what made the relationship so damn personal and important.

I promise I will never share anything about her again.

>>15

You're right. You shouldn't have posted that. Hope you learned your lesson and have more respect for her in the future.

Notice how you never see her hair line in most of pictures that she has this hair in? It looks fucking awful.

>>

You know, it's possible that a lot of us will just appreciate it for what it is. Times have changed

>>18

Hence all the bandanas, caps and so on...

Mmhm i don't see anything wrong..
Nice find btw >>9, mute huh.

>>20
As I understand it from the other forums I have found her on, she just decided to stop talking. I thik something bad happened to her around this time too. She doesn't say much about it, but about when she went stopped talking, her whole style of writing changed. She seemed to develop a darker personality.

>>21
Oh, man.
Poor girl.

I wonder how many of us feature in her 'nightmare diary'.

>>15

Everyone had it, don't fret. Phee was one of her original photobuckets.

>>24
Well I finally decided to do a little investigative work, do to the challenge on Wish.

Up until now I have been content to respect her personal space(read coward), but it seemed like enough time has passed and she probably knows people are looking into every aspect of her past, so if she really cared to she could have deleted everything(creep justifing himself).

I still do love you Olivia. Now that I know a little more about who you are, I am inclined to be less obsessive. You aren't this perfect girl, My Sky Queen. I obsessed over you because you were impossible, but you aren't. You are real and very human. I will probably never get the chance to speak with you, know you and romance you, but if you are real maybe I can find a girl who is enough like the girl I imagined to be with me. Until then I am still a fan of your art, and you still are the most attractive girl I ever have seen. Your eyes are as pretty as all the stars at night.

bah I am terribad at this.

It's like finding out Santa is really your father, but still wanting to get the presents.

>>25

Especially you are never going to meet the person you perceived from your investigations. She has obviously changed while growing up.

>she could have deleted everything(creep justifing himself).

She deleted everything she could, but made some mistakes. That is why you can still see some posts.

>>26
Which in my previous posts I touched on. Forced anon can get confusing, but bear with me.

Tl;dr

-lonely virgins want to stick their dicks in an internet camwhore

-internet camwhore grows up, gets fat

-lonely virgins get carpal tunnel in their right hands

-everyone dies alone

The end.

>>29
You forgot a step
-troll fails

>>29
seconded

>>29

BUT SHE IS SO CUTE & SWEEEEET

Also, supposedly she is fucking one of said guys. Mission accomplished.

>>15

Could be worse. Think about what Icarus did, found her real identity and then shared it with the circlejerk who then all threw a hissy fit and decided that she wasn't as perfect as they thought and got bored with the whole thing and for his troubles? He pissed off Cracky who had been pretty reasonable with him, had his computer and all cracky related emails and accounts compromised and ended up in the loony bin. When all he had to do was not share with anyone and keep his mouth shut and spend the rest of his life being the only (or at least one of the few) people to have found Cracky's real name and had actually spoken to her.

I wouldn't regret sharing what you did because regret, nostalgia and bad decisions are the driving force behind this board. Besides if you're lucky eventually you'll learn from your mistakes and find something to fill the void or at least better yourself so you don't end up like the rest of the human detritus round here.

>>33
When someone talks about the human detritus here they are talking about me. When ever anybody wants to hold of the standard for how fucking worthless crackyfans are they mention my trip.

I am the guy that sucks, plus I got depression.

That scent...that skin...a stranger to the tides of birth and grief...In her every aspect there is but unapologetic LIFE

>>34

I would bet good money that I was and probably still am more worthless than you but at least I'm trying. Make a plan and try to stick to it and see where it takes you and if you're already doing that then I wouldn't complain too much.

>>36 >>34

So I get here feeling like a worthless piece of shit totally unable to fit anywhere -and wondering why I was so lucky to find Her and see that something beyond Her eyes- and I find all these posts here. Duh, thank you synchrowhatever.

Hacked?

>>37

>synchrowhatever

I think you're thinking of serendipity not synchronicity. Also you should know that if you take this as seriously as you seem to. Not that I have that picture anymore but it should be about.

>>39 Yeah, my fault, I usually mix them both conceptually since I take the whole as the “discourse from the Other” or from the unconscious self. Anyway, “synchronicity” is good for mutial understanding but I don't like it as a scientific term. At least in the usual sense of an “acausal connecting principle”, since it looks like a coherent discourse.

I love you carpfolding

klaseness

Bumping the sky Queen

Someone pushed a latex-clad meaty appendix into one of her many orifices.

educated and not afraid of sexuality

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sO5APfKnR50

oh i remember these. i remember her saying on that forum that she had nightmares about being skinned alive and raped and eaten by a snake or some shit. poor girl.

Author: pheelie, Location: in euneirophrenia PostPosted: Sat May 15, 2004 6:38 pm

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i think if i met myself exactly as i am now, then 'we' would agree (and of course we would agree, because right now we'd be exactly the same) to separate for at least a couple of years, try to have as completely different experiences of life as possible, and then re-meet a couple of years later and see how different/synchronised we still are. although. i think that would have a dangerous potential, because if one of us ended up with a much more fulfilling/meaningful/downright happy life than the other, i'm sure the other would kill her in jealousy. i mean, it's one of the worst things i can imagine to have a living breathing flesh image of what you could have been but cannot be. but then....we could both have awesome lives that still shapes us differently, but because both come from the same core thing i'm sure it would be like having a "soulmate" once we reunited with eachother.

>>48
i didnt know they were still there. but i found the one i meant:

"----
hardly ever - i would say i've had about three nightmares in the past two years. not to say i don't have some dreams that make me anxious or uncomfortable, but the only dreams that have made me really really fearful are rare. i did once wake up screaming from a nightmare (my friend who was in the next room can vouch for it); the dream itself was one in which i was raped and skinned alive, not necessarily in that order. i never have bad dreams about fantasy monsters or ghosts - only "real" evils.

when i was a child i used to have a recurring dream whereince i was eaten by a boa constrictor that had escaped from london zoo, but apart from that my sleeplife has never been very horrifying...."

>>48
>>49
interesting stuff

>i did once wake up screaming from a nightmare (my friend who was in the next room can vouch for it); the dream itself was one in which i was raped and skinned alive, not necessarily in that order.

Yeah, good times.

Don't let your dreams be dreams.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTs_TZFjbJ8

>>51

I think it would be totally impractical to prepare a human roast that way. It will take way too long for the heat to reach the core. You have to stretch the human out an spit roast it. Only then the meat will be cooked evenly.

Also, you may probably want to remove the lower part of the limbs as they are full of tendons. Not very yummy.

Probably you'd also want to turn some of the meat into jerky or sausage so you can preserve it a little longer. You can snack on bits of Cracky during teatime for the next couple of months.

Finally, if humans were raised for consumptions, what would be to best age to harvest them? Assume there would be ways to fatten them up quicker than they would naturally do, but I guess it will still take a couple of years.

(pic related)

>>52

It's all about the size of the oven, and like any roast, and especially with a **rare who-roast beef* you really want to slow roast at low temps for maximum tenderness. It's a whole day thing. You marinate the meat and then marinate your meat, and then baste and baste and baste.

But seeing as we can't celebrate putting a bun in out favorite oven,

I've made a small consolation gift for us.

It's new corky theme.

https://freestyler.ws/style/139348/nubounce

tested with both chrome and FF.

veri: fubation, i.e. Fuck you, Imma get muh 'bation on.

p.s. I'm still deader than disco.

>>53

cooking is creepy, try raw

i would use the neck, brain, and liver, or maybe do some trans-plant work

>>53
nice theme man

>>1
>>2

>The thought of her using that. It drives me insane.

Would you have preferred if she got a little internet baby from her teenage internet bf?