hello all. i haven't been here in a while, actually thinking about it i realize its been almost two years. I remember the site was a bit different. there were some links on the homepage to galleries and info and stuff if that tells you how long ago it was.
Anyways, I used to be pretty obsessed with cracky. I was around when she was still active online and I had most of the photos, but I wasn't talking to her on aim or anything though in retrospect I wish I had the balls to do so when I had the chance. Kind of a passive obsession I guess. Well I stopped going on chans and decided it might be healthy to pursue love with someone I could interact with. Cracky filled a gap in me but not all the way. I needed to see if it could be filled. It's been a while and I never found love. I've recently fallen into a depression and cannot sleep more than a few hours every other night. I was on 4chan recently to see what it was like nowadays and couldn't believe my eyes to see a cracky thread, and a long one at that. It brought back so many memories about how these pictures used to fulfill me. So I came back here to see what was up. When I look at the pictures I remember everything. Each emotion that each individual picture used to evoke in me and it all comes back. I'm not into all that sky goddess mysticism some of you guys spout, I'm just a dude who's made a little bit better by some pictures of a girl.
It's bittersweet because even when I was in the know about everything she was up to, there was nothing I could do about it. I could never go over there and be with her. Now it's worsened by the passage of time, because our being together is further cemented in impossibility. It was never possible, and I always knew that, but I was still happy when I saw her smile, and even now I still am.
I don't know what's going on, or why I'm even saying this. Maybe I figure you guys can associate with me or something. Maybe it will just be some oricinal content so you don't have to read all the copy pasta posted around here.
Anyways, just felt like sharing with ya .71, hope all is well these days.