I concede that I might have not sank enough -though I've had my fair share of that-, but I've always been comfortable in solitude.

However, the most terrorific event in my life was discovering I was not alone, when She spoke to me. Now I yearn for her. I can only understand the quote in thinking about Her leaving me truly alone.

>>2

>a mask
>some memory or some illusion

The point was that that is what she has become to you. A totem for you to cling to when all else is lost. You're clinging to the memory of something long since gone but you can't let go without going utterly and irreversibly insane. I said before nostalgia is one of the driving forces behind this board though it's not just nostalgia for your own past but also for the pasts of others. It's that nostalgia that keeps you coming back and will have a hold on you until you either find in yourself the strength to break out of it or She breaks it for you.

This life can't be good on the soul. Isolate from everyone and everything head-first into my work. The topic couldn't aid in my health either... "Truth" by Felipe Fernandez-Armesto, "On Truth and Lie in an Extra-Moral Sense" by Friedrich Nietzsche, "Robot: Mere Machine to Transcendent Mind" by Moravec and lastly "Robot Evolution: The Development of Anthrobotics" by Rosheim. These test the fortitude of a mental image called purpose I've placed on my life. Sometimes I wonder what I'll be like in six years from now. If I keep consuming this material I just might go crazy with pure understanding and achieve knowledge meant for God alone. Part of me wants to just escape my fate. Thats why I leave AIM on, have a myspace and check my voice mail. Its almost like I want someone to save me from me it all. There have been those people in my life from time to time. When ever I become engrossed with my work and find the motivation to finally break down the human being into a formula; something tosses a female or a tragic event my way and I get off track. When I got close to the breaking point; that point is deciding that all humans are evil creatures than need to be whipped clean from the face of the planet, I find a girl that wants to spend time with me. Currently there have been six major evolutionary steps in my mental development. All of which have had their chapters closed by a girl I knew leaving me or a tragic event such as a death.

Either Cracky herself wants to keep me from my future out of compassion, or the circlejerk wants to keep me from reaching the understanding of true faith

truth thread
~mice

I love you carpfolding

>>4

Speak.