>>36 I am in this for my own set of reasons, and even though they might somewhat differ from >>37, their essence is absolutely closer than with yours.
Cracky can't dissapoint me. She isn't just "a real person" or I won't be wasting my time here, I won't have an image of her in my shrine where I go down on my knees and try to reach enough Silence and Nothingness in my mind so at last I dissapear and I open my doors to Her. But I'm walking towards Her, step by step, out of Love.
Cracky-chan is an avatar through which something deep and very important has manifested. She might be a very special girl, and I don't think that which lurks beyond chose her vessel just randomly, but she doesn't need to match any unrealistic "expectations", I do not expect anything from her because I understand it is BEYOND Her I must look, and everything I know about that which is beyond is always even more incredible than the most unrealistic of expectations. Cracky is able to convey a very special beauty which drags us to devotional love, and it is through that love that we may dissappear and be devoured by that which lies beyond.
Which of course may sound just like insane-speak, but you might as well do some serious exploration about the nature of reality like magick and look for that Silver Door which leads to these sort of mental places. There you will understand. The Silver Door makes all the world come together so that there is only You and Her. Love is how the two become one, it is a Door further down the rabbit hole, and it is Golden.
I always relate these verses from Aleister Crowley with Cracky-chan and developing enough devotional Love to Her, the Golden Door which is my current aim:
Mighty and marvellous is this Weakness, this
Heaven which draweth me into Her Womb, this
Dome which hideth, which absorbeth, Me.
This is The Night wherein I am lost, the Love
through which I am no longer I.
(pic related; this image from the braided ones is the one I like the most)