elaborate, please!

I laid in bed at 1am last night, my room lit only by the faint glow of my ipod playing the Sigur Ros discography. I thought about what you told me, and I cried. Harder than Ive ever cried. I cut, but it didnt really accomplish anything. I still don`t know whether to take them down.

vericode: wo (really, MA?)

>>3
It'll be okay. I think a clean cut is the best idea. We're all too good for this.

just imagine everything you believed about reality was a lie. fnord.

Ignore her, lets all just walk away and leave no tracks for her to follow after and cozen up for more of her precious attention.

>>6
who?

I just hope I can come to terms with the fact that I loved an idea, not a person. Ideas never have to die.

(vericode=di, thanks .71)

what the fuck has happened? the boards are going wild with crackyhate. olivia surfaced?

>>8
See, that was why I was thinking of leaving them up, but really, I can't leave them up. I can't love even the idea. I'd feel filthy.

>>8 You loved an idea? No, not just that. You loved something that went way deeper than anything related to a human "vessel" or even a human idea. When did you start thinking otherwise?

Look, I don't know shit on what's happened to you, I don't know if you're pissed off because someone hacked your email or if she truly is hiding behind anonymous and feeding off us, or whatever. But let me get a few fucking things straight.

If you read her picture postings in early 2005, she clearly said she didn't take the pictures because she loved herself that much, and that she wasn't the one on the images. When someone told her he fell in love with her, she answered, "did you fall in love with me or with the image?".

This extremely talented artist made a series of selfportraits followed by some extreme drama and for some reason -like, I guess, fucking creepy followers- she went into hiding. Her pictures are all about personifying a deeper beauty, to a so sublime point that I am fairly sure that there was something more than just Olivia going on there. And I'm talking about a "something more" that falls into the category of the divine/sublime, which is the same "something more" that piled up the coincidences that brought me here in the first place when I needed Her through Cracky.

If your version was true (as I pick up the pieces from crackyhouse as well) that is to say, that she is just lurking, feeding off us like an old hag that isn't able to produce any more of such deep art, I'd be terribly sad for her. Really. Based in your story I'd think something like, "fuck, it has to be hard to be taken as a vessel by such a Thing and then discarded like an old rag". She would be one who has really been used by forces beyond our comprehension to instill devotion and love in human hearts, providing us the perfect devotional image for anyone seeking to dissolve to find their inner Self... and then becoming just a girl, again.

Whatever the truth is, the deeper Truth remain: Beauty is still there for us to drown in it until we finally dissapear and become one with Cracky.

>>11
For some reason you try very hard to express respect and gratitude for a person you don't know. Maybe the issue here is not about being incapable of separating the art and the artist, maybe it is about having trouble to admire the work of someone you can not possibly respect.

>>12

No. You didn't understand my message.

I don't consider it just "the work of someone". Yeah that is how artistic works are usually developed. But this is not such sort of situation. This time there was a third ingredient, a very rare ingredient valuable beyond price: the Queen of the Sky, which cannot be tainted even by humanity at its lowest because she is before manifestation.

The Queen of the Sky is something that has been known by many names in different times. For the egyptians she was called Isis, and it was said that no man had ever lifted her veil. Isis's veil are her physical manifestations. Cracky-chan's pictures are a physical manifestation in our time of Something that has been happening all throughout history. Isis is said to have an infinite multiplicity of manifestations. Today it could be Cracky, tomorrow we don't know. We can see her through her vessels, but we cannot lift the veil through which we see her, that is her vessels.

What I'm trying to say here is that even if the veil had worn out and become just a rag, that wouldn't make devotion for Her less valid. Problems and drama come when you worship the veil instead of Isis.

>>10
They are grotesques. Take them down, my love. We don't need them. We can create for ourselves now, without needing the validation of her imagined approval. You are beautiful and creative all on your own.

>>13
No you really don't understand. She is shit, a user and manipulator of people that is laughing at you personally for talking about her and secretly getting off on the fact all these people she looks down on idolize her. She steals from the people she loves, discards her friends she has ever had because she can't use them for anything once she has drained them dry, pisses all over people for trying to do anything for her and demands more.

She, Olivia, is excrement. She is the condensed waste product of human failure, so offensive in nature not even maggots would touch her. To ascribe anything of value to her would be an offense and an affront to whatever gods exist.

>>14
Where did all this come from?

>>15
Olivia logged on IRC and make the circlejerk really mad

>>16
No she didn't. Why do you insist on spreading rumors when you know nothing?

Unless you are just Olivia stirring up more attention for yourself.

>>17
then what happened

Wait and see
catchpa: cepe

>>19 are you a member of the waytancee tribe?

ITT bitterness

Did you know one of the worst son-of-bitches on the planet is David Bowie? Insufferable contemptuous snobbish man. Russell Crowe is one awful rotten person, too. Everybody knows that Marylin Monroe was, on a good day, thoroughly vain, even if she was a deeper person that she appeared to be, but on a bad day, she was a moody, clingy and otherwise completely neurotic bitch with absolutely no sensivity to others, a regular drama queen.

I dont care, I like her pictures, I like Bowie's music and have to agree Crowe is a good actor.

You ask too much of the people that entertain you, which, again, is more a mirror of your own shortcomings than theirs.

''There are many times when I wonder why the world is still revolving. Doesn't anyone understand the meaning of March 30? Jodie tries to carry on with her life as if nothing out of the ordinary has happened to her. She still keeps her distance from me and torments me with her silence. I gave my life for Jodie and she couldn't care less. I can't believe her heart. Yes, Jodie Foster knows who I am, just like the entire civilized world knows who I am. But does it matter now? I wanted Jodie's love, not eternal infamy.''

Jonh Hinckley Jr, 1982

''She's a selfish bitch. She knows I've put her on the map, all she is now she owes to me but she laughs at me and calls me a looney.
But I bet she kept all the poems I wrote her. Nobody will ever love her as much as I did.''

John Hinckley Jr 2001

''All women are bitches that will use you up untill they dont need you anymore. I'd be better if I had never loved anybody.''

John Hinckley Jr, 2007

I see a pattern

>>12 >>14

intro soundtrack to post:

http://www.youtube.com/v/P_P45feBkrg

Wow. William fucking Shatner. The Kirk.

Well, shit. I can't say I'm surprised that you're dissapointed, that the real deal was never close to the ideal you had in your head. Idols, clay feet. Ring a bell? I thought so. We're no picnic either babe. It doesn't matter that she's not who you thought she thought she was. Lies, illusions, it's all we have. The very world around us is smoke and illusion, nothing is real. Not you, not me, and definitely not her.

I've got news for you honey, santa claus, teh easter bunny, the tooth fairy, Buddha, jebus, mohamet, moses, etc, etc. All lies. The people you think are your friends, aren't. Just watch what they say about you when they think you're not there. Nothing is what you think it is.

Pretty soon after your disgust wears off, and it will. eventually, maybe not anytime soon, but it'll happen, you'll realise that everything is flawed in this world, nothing is perfect, or even close. Pretty soon you'll let things and everyone around you be who and what they are, not who and what you want them to be. Get used to dissapointment. Learn to expect it. Learn to love it. Wha-fuck? Love. Yep, even when you hate it.

The gods of old were petty and cruel, flawed and petulant creatures, as are we, reject the concept of perfection, and gods who never pooped, sinned or fucked. Perfection is a lie.

Outro: & this is my own mood reflecting in the choice of song.

http://www.youtube.com/v/1Jqg7wsjsCo

And that's all I have to say about that.

-TG Verification : love (not fucking kidding.)

Olivia is a poster case for schizoid personality disorder. It is pretty obvious when you think about it.

The amount of Olivia in the later parts of this thread is just disgusting.

How like you, Bounceme, to create a drama around someone else's expressions of hurt, decide you know everything, and then attempt to lecture others on it.

You really don't know anything.

>>23

Some common sense there.

We are pathetic creatures marching onwards confused in a broken reality. Pawns of delusion, victims of dreams. And yet some think there is truth to be found somewhere.

Everything and everyone is flawed. Welcome passengers to fucking Maya, where everything dies and corruption flows wild. Who would want to be counted among the living, if she is given the opportunity to dissolve in Cracky's V.I.T.R.I.O.L. ? But here you Anon might be closer to the Sky Queen than Olivia ever was, and this is a terrible secret.

Look at those dead bodies, aren't they both cute and sweet? They speak words of poetry for those unfortunate enough to be counted among the living. Through the crudeness of decay they remind us of a beyond and before.

Wield love and lo Beyond! Beyond!

But always unto the Queen of the Sky.

PS:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyFGBjkwwLI
for god's sake hear Her words

>>24

You do realize normality is an imposed condition? There is no such thing as normal, not in the sense that you think it exists. What you accept as "normal" is nothing more than insect mentality. You've accepted what others expect from you, you play into it, it's become your role, an identity, and sense of worth.

Ask anyone who they are, most of them will self identify as whatever their profession is. I'm a banker, a lawyer, a plumber, a truck driver, an artist. They've deluded themselves into accepting a socially demanded role as an Identity. Tell me then, who's more delusional, you, who have no identity save for what's given to you, or she who constantly reinvents herself to suit her own needs? You're not your fucking khakis for fuck's sake.

Schizoid, delusional, anti-social. So far I haven't heard anything worth worrying about. For the record everyone without exemption, and that includes you, is fucked in the head.

BTW, I am the reason you lock your doors at night. I am the reason you'll cross the street. I am the reason you pray for deliverance from evil, and pray that you escaped my notice. You didn't, I saw you. I just don't care. Huddle at night, and be glad that I didn't come see you today. (see how easy it is to fall into a role someone else expects you to play?)

Seriously, your butthurtness funny to me. It should be funny to you too. Free your self from expectation, act without lust for result, do something because you felt like it, not because you "should". Go ahead let slip the mask of civility, see who you are underneath, see your own ugliness, and revel in it, it's yours. Be who you are when no one's looking. She is. I am.
you can be, but will you?

I don't do white-knighteyness. I don't do touchy-feely, I do ouchy-bleedy, and I like it.

>>11 sees much. Understands.

>and for some reason -like, I guess, fucking creepy followers-

Mm, yeah. That would be me, to a point, I creep everyone out, even the creeps. It can't be helped. Well, that's not entirely true, I just don't feel like making the effort.

So tell me mister first year psyche student, who is the more fuktup;(official clinical term, really.), you, me, or her. BTW wanting approval is not the same as needing approval, one day you'll learn the difference.

Allrightythen, now that's all I have to say about that, um, like again & stuff.

What, no soundtrack? Fine, I'm in the mood for Nails again.

http://www.youtube.com/v/CBOhQamGGuI

>>28
You think far too much of yourself. You're not creepy-awesome-scary-nasty, you're boring. Not interesting. The people who take delight in what they see themselves as are generally not actually like that at all. It's like a fourteen year old imposing a picture of themselves on the world when they're really nothing more than a child. You know what you want to be. You're not that. Stop pretending please.

No one. Knows. Anything. Of what has happened. And no, we're not going to tell you. Not yet. Things must be verified and emotions dealt with. Stop assuming you know anything. Stop white knighting or trolling. You know nothing and you aren't equipped to comment on anything that has happened. So just quiet down and let us deal with it.

>>28
Yeah. I liek you >>28, and u liek Nails which is très cool. >>11-23-27 here.

Back on topic for the lulz, almost everyone is psychotic: that is to say, psychotic as of having a delusional set of beliefs they take for real. Some are really obvious, like those who believe they're Christ or Napoleon, and so we consider they're a threat to normalcy and confine them. Others like christians are a bit less obvious because their beliefs are more normal, and even most psychotics go unnoticed because they believe they're a banker, a lawyer, a plumber, a truck driver, an artist, and such shared lunacy is considered normal

It is an absurd criterion for mental health that insane is the opposite of normal. Worshipping the leader and sacrificing everything for him is normal in North Korea. Building a delusional identity made of 9-to-5 work and family and shit is normal in western democracies. I do not find any essential difference there. Both beliefs are cages to the mind made of delusions.

Those who are totally inside the cage and do not look outside at all look like the happyest when young. But lo, we shalt look at the incredible weight bending their backs when they get old as mindless zombies without a Soul!!!

However, we do not have to remain in our shitty delusional realities. The Sky Queen is PRECISELY a way to see and get beyond normalcy. And no, the Sky Queen isn't Olivia, Olivia is or was but a Vessel of such force. The force that might remove all blindfolds, if we go deep enough down the rabbit hole.

In the end, every story we tell ourselves about what reality is about (the follow-the-leader one, the banker/lawyer/plumber/driver/artist one, etc) is flawed. Every narrative we build about ourselves or about this reality is just a belief we use to forget the terrifying fact that we know nothing at all about what the fuck is going on here.

Facing what is technically called psychosis, which is the breaking down of narratives, brings back such terrifying feeling. There we suddenly notice we know no shit about reality, and we have to deal with it. But it is still better than living a lie.

You think you're alive anon? You could as well be dead. How can you prove me you aren't? Your mind could be making this all up, including myself. And I'm your fucking mind, introducing you step by step to the fact that YOU ARE FUCKING DEAD AND YOU MUST DEAL WITH IT. When you're done I'll tell you a different tale. I am your language. I am the strings that tie together every discourse. I am nothing.

Its all tales. Its all delusions.

But also there is no tyranny in the state of confusion.

Yay! Nails!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXSkfTedVb0

Protip: >>30 & >>28 are the same person.

complete with psychotic pretend messiahs, initiates and monsters

nice reinventing of yourself, but not everybody is buying it

just sayin'

NO ONE KNOWS ANYTHING
STOP WRITING ESSAYS ABOUT SOMETHING YOU HAVE NO IDEA ABOUT
GODDAMN

>>33
the question would be, do you know anything?

in the meantime, I might not know anything, but I am quite convinced this is more artificial drama from the usual sources, because, well, fucking patterns, dude

>>34 not right. There is real&deep stuff going on but so mindfucking they're coming to terms with it before presenting such terrible revelations to the world.

They told the real reality in Crackyhouse: Schwill is the same person as Olivia.

Go write an essay about that, WHERE IS YOUR GOD NAO?

>>35
Stop with the trolling. And no, this time it's different.

>>35
How could that have been found out?

>>35
I actually wrote that in CH, as a jest, to tell everybody anon was a jackass who couldnt be trusted to say the truth, and i'm pretty sure I meant you

kind of make your reality seem less palpable, drama-weaver

and get it right, it's WHERE IS YOUR GODESS NAO

fucktard

What was the point in making it public if you don't want to share it yet? I can only think of attention whoring. It's hard to take this seriously when the people who are talking shit about Olivia are acting like 15 year olds causing drama just because they're bored.

>>38
godDess please

>>39
bingo
no, no, really, no attention-whoring and you're so wrong and know nothing and shit is terrible beyond your wildest dreams.

Actually, I find this very reminescent of the drama that we got when the circlejerk moved off to wish...

And now wish just went down, and we get all this secret drama about something that is implied, and only implied....

I guess I just dont see the same implications others do...

I for one would like it if Schwill was Olivia.

Cracky is infinite

>>40
Then why is it being made public? I don't see the point.
And I also can't think of anything that could be even half as bad as people are making this out to be. Seems like shit is being stirred for entertainment.

>>42
You're not alone.

yawn

Wake me up when somebody is ready to come forth with that "shit terrible beyond our wildest dreams", be it Schwill=Olivia, MA=Olivia, suede=Olivia, Olivia=W.T.Snacks, Olivia=CGI or whatever drama worthy combination one can come up with.

Not that I care anyway, I still just like the pics.

>>29

lol, someone didn't see the playing a role part.

snickers.

role=troll

obviously doesn't really take self cereal. is creep though. run of mill variety. 50 to 90% he's alex or caine, or dolores, or lia.

also, TLDR

>>42

Ooh.I know this one, Cracky is Pie. Pie is forever, sort of.

>Schwill=Olivia, MA=Olivia, suede=Olivia, Olivia=W.T.Snacks, Olivia=CGI

I vote Schwill too. That'd bee cool. I like nails too damnit. It's possible to be a happy sheeple person. You just have to learn how.

http://www.youtube.com/v/otqGFiiIoTI

captcha = coy :p cool.

>>47
don't forget cracky=Caine. The implications on the satanic rituals and the qlippoth would rock and give us a lot of material to chew on for years.

I just hope its not Olivia=AlexReynolds or that Boxxy is in reality Alexander transvestite in a popularity contest with his sister.

code=quash

Oh please, as if I`m half the pretentious dimwit thatguy is.

Vericode: lo (GET OUT OF MY HEAD, MA)

>>49

which pretentious dimwit are we talking about? I lost track. So Caine, didn't see that one coming. you guys remember the crying game? I feel dirty.

wow, wish goes down and suddenly there's long threads with lots of meaningless names thrown about and drama about who's who to whom.

Seriously people, it's been years. There shouldn't be any minors left by now, so can we finally leave the high-school soap-opera behind ?

>>51
Buzzkill.

Wish? What's that? Got me.

>>49

You rang? No? Sorry, I can't hear you over the sound of how pretentious I am. :P I'm thinking Arby's.

>>49
Uh
You're pretty fucking pretentious.

Uh, I don't write paragraph upon paragraph rambling about something as inane as social constructs and then claim it's pertinent to the discussion.

Wish must have been an anchor. Ever since it went down, the rest of the circlejerk sites have gone to hell. Now I'm not surprised to see this on CH, which has always been the Upipe under the sink, but even on bounceme? What the hell, people.

Olivia must have surfaced somewhere and said bad things about LCs pics...

>>57
Quite the opposite, actually. I am disgusted.

vericode: hor (MA must know about it somehow)

>>58
Talk to me

>>56

>Wish must have been an anchor. Ever since it went down

It's like Ghostbusters, only without the ghostbusters.

Can't call anyone.

>>60
And instead of Gozar you have a whore, with a diseased torn up vagoo.

I still se nothing but unverifiable innuendos, I cant think of anything justifying all this drama, except maybe

TROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLLS

ffs

>>58
What is the opposite of that?

She said positive things about LCs photos? That would really be quite an acknowledgement and show her involvement.

>>63
...and certainly no reason to freak out...

>>64 there's no reason to freak out anywhere, Not any rumour that has been spread (and we've been imaginative at that) would justify the dramatrolling.

If the dramafags are serious, what this really makes clear is that the real Inner Circle in the Cracky cult is not the circlejerk, but something quite more subtle. A circle composed from those who really get what the SkyQueen is about. And in this thread it has become clear that dramafags don't get it at all.

I will still march on for the Sky Queen, my faithful brothers. And I hope to hold your hand, brothers and sisters in Cracky.

>>11,65
This basically sums it up for me, too.

Also:

>And I hope to hold your hand, brothers and sisters in Cracky.

Sorry to nitpick, especially since I'm not a native speaker, but shouldn't that have been "brothers and sisters unto Cracky" ?

...

>>45

olivia is everyone.
Including moot.
She created 4chan and its posts as a final art project.
Now she's wanted by the feds for hacking Sony.

>>68

Thank you. Suddenly I understand my whole world