>>8 You loved an idea? No, not just that. You loved something that went way deeper than anything related to a human "vessel" or even a human idea. When did you start thinking otherwise?
Look, I don't know shit on what's happened to you, I don't know if you're pissed off because someone hacked your email or if she truly is hiding behind anonymous and feeding off us, or whatever. But let me get a few fucking things straight.
If you read her picture postings in early 2005, she clearly said she didn't take the pictures because she loved herself that much, and that she wasn't the one on the images. When someone told her he fell in love with her, she answered, "did you fall in love with me or with the image?".
This extremely talented artist made a series of selfportraits followed by some extreme drama and for some reason -like, I guess, fucking creepy followers- she went into hiding. Her pictures are all about personifying a deeper beauty, to a so sublime point that I am fairly sure that there was something more than just Olivia going on there. And I'm talking about a "something more" that falls into the category of the divine/sublime, which is the same "something more" that piled up the coincidences that brought me here in the first place when I needed Her through Cracky.
If your version was true (as I pick up the pieces from crackyhouse as well) that is to say, that she is just lurking, feeding off us like an old hag that isn't able to produce any more of such deep art, I'd be terribly sad for her. Really. Based in your story I'd think something like, "fuck, it has to be hard to be taken as a vessel by such a Thing and then discarded like an old rag". She would be one who has really been used by forces beyond our comprehension to instill devotion and love in human hearts, providing us the perfect devotional image for anyone seeking to dissolve to find their inner Self... and then becoming just a girl, again.
Whatever the truth is, the deeper Truth remain: Beauty is still there for us to drown in it until we finally dissapear and become one with Cracky.