>>3 (not mutually exclusive)
disconnected
unfeeling, unthinking
missing something
I never had
will never have
shouldn't have
couldn't have
it's a hole
black hole
of nothingness
it's nothing
that should matter
why does it matter?
it doesn't matter
tearing apart
shedding, rending
crack open the bone
it's not there
it's not anywhere
it'll be gone
when the snow melts
it was careful
it was neat
got no hands
got no feet
got no eyes
got no teeth
i fell
fallen
deep
no way out
not that i'd want it
if i knew how
and i don't
that's what i tell myself
sometimes
i almost believe it
the pretty poison
dulls my mind
and i sleep on
then wake.
a moment's courage
all i ask
that i can cut swiftly
i can cut deep