FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUU, *heart

I certainly wouldn't be living on earth rotting away behind an internet machine on a... Saturday is it? Fuck.

When you're (f)unemployed you never know what day it is. You just drink.

>>3
I'm unemployed and I can't afford as much hooch as I'd like to drink. I settle for tripping acid occasionally. Much cheaper.

I have a job that pays 100K$+, responsibility for a M$+ project, a good number of people that work for me, just returned from a party and I am still here.

Fuck it.

>>5
"responsibility for a M$+ project"

I'd be networking with unemployed people online too. It can only give your career a boost.

>>4
I would do that if I wasn't weary of shattering insanity.

>>7
"But I don't want to go among insane people," Anon remarked.
"Oh, you can't help that," said the Cat: "We're all insane here. I'm insane. You're insane."
"How do you know I'm insane?" said Anon.
"You must be," said the Cat, "otherwise you wouldn't have come here."

>>8
Well played... and stuff.
But no, seriously, I used to sheets upon vials of acid in my teenage years and was even selling it at one point. </bragging> I reached a point where I was descending slowly but surely into this schizophrenic, nervous, perma-tripped-out state of being and I was concerned that I may be 'one of those people' who is pre-disposed to schizo and shouldn't be fucking around with Entheogens and Psychedelics. I may do it again someday, though. Fuck it. But, not today or anytime in the near future T_T

I am very jealous of you, though. I wish I could just be doing that instead.

Sigh.

>>9

You can't over do psychedelics man. I never trip more than once a month. You need time to recover mentally in between trips, to return to baseline sort of.

My opinion might be skewed by the fact that I can't find a vial cheaper than $500 and don't even have enough money for that.

>>10

>You can't over do psychedelics man.

I somewhat disagree. People who do them too much, even accomplished psychonauts, usually end up showing signs of inflated egos and sometimes get out of touch with reality.

Don't get me wrong, psychedelics are quite good for opening gates to consciousness expansion, but when people have them as your main technique to do that, they usually end up living in two worlds: the normal everyday life one and the other one in which they have the visions, the insights, etc. I've seen this duality develop so that the normal consciousness believes it has the abilities of the otherwordly one, or misunderstanding the visions and insights, because in the end it is normal consciousness.

I think it is an error to consider them the easy/democratic way to go down the rabbit hole. If you really want to see beyond, you're gonna need to make an effort. Like, when you say recover mentally and return to baseline, yeah, I think you have to bring the stuff down to earth. The optimal way of doing this I guess would be blurring the division between normal and expanded consciousness. I wanna function in both worlds, being able to manage mundane stuff and also sorta tripping the whole friggin' day.

Also for Anon, psychedelics are a nice way to start healing your mind. If you're afraid its probably not because you might become schizophreniac but because of the contents from your unconscious that will surely arise. But hey those are what we need to heal.

>>11
I'm sorry, but it has to be said:

I love you like a brother, or sister perhaps, but by the very standards of your exposé, you apparently took too much psychedelics...

Psychedelics should be a business of the brain alone. Vegetables and mushrooms have evil spirits living inside them. Srsly.

>>13

It seems like it. Take jimsonweed, for instance, very bad trip, both times. I thought the first time was a fluke so I tried again a few weeks later, and it was even worse than the first time even though the dosage was reduced. Seriously fucked up shit. Total separation with reality, a full on chemically induced hallucinatory psychotic break. There's no feeling of it not being real or hallucinatory when it's happening very little of what I remember was pleasant, most of it had horror-like overtones remember playing with and petting my cat, it's been dead for years but right then it wasn't but then it died again in my lap and rotted away. After the second time I didn't think my eyesight would ever recover, it never fully did, daylight hurts my eyes and I see huge halo's around any light source at night now, so I can't drive at night anymore. Some of the halos look like huge three dimensional glowing sea urchins. It's worth mentioning it's also lethal in higher doses, and it's not clear where that line is, not that I'll ever experiment with that particular plant again, some of the other side effects were severe disruption with short term memory for a few days after. My friend who was also stupid enough to try it even after watching me go through that, he was the watcher as I was for him, he doesn't remember any of what happened to him, mostly he just sat in the corner tripping balls playing imaginary video games and smoking imaginary cigarettes. Again, not recommended, shit can easily kill you, but you probably knew that already. It's just one of the many hazards of being a psychonaut and an idiot. It's also the only time I've ever seen "Her" outside of a dream or online, she rotted too.

>>14

I guess the problem here might be psychedelics = forced. The psychotic blurring of the line between fact/fiction could be healthful if not forced, for it is all but fantasies in our minds, and those tend to become too heavy. The difference could be you naturally saw Her through dreams or online: She chose such vessels. However by eating or drinking some fucked up substance that made the veils thin enough for Her to appear its not like it happened naturally (but still we yearn for Her!).

Thank you for sharing your experience on that kind Anon, I will take it into account.

>>11
You misunderstood. I meant "One should not over do psychedelics."