Suffering leads to deliverance.
In the old days this was mistakenly done by inflicting physical harm on oneself.
The real suffering comes from tearing the soul from the flesh to study it more closely and analyze it.
The only thing you'll learn is to never attempt that, like a warranty void mark on the inside.
In six years you will likely be dead, broken, and misanthropic, or insane to the rest of the world ...like me.