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I don't think I ever felt anything for Lia that could be even remotely described as "love".
I know that everyone who uses this board will be absolutely GAGGING to hear this, so let me give a brief summary of the essentials:
For about three years, I steered almost entirely clear of Lia. She was rather too young for me to find her interesting and her clique of admirers struck me as being particularly creepy and distasteful even by Crackyverse standards (pedophiles, occultists, 16-year-olds with the minds of 13-year-olds etc.) Those of you who've been around for a few years will remember a furous month-long flame-war between me and the "Lia Gang" on Crackyhouse in 2009, I think, which ended with Jeff splitting the board so that the "Lia Gang" could go and do their infantile creepy thing somewhere where people who weren't into that shit didn't have to look at them.
Between 2009 and 2012, as we know, the Crackyhouse side of the Crackyverse pretty much disintegrated. Camel vanished. Then Dolly vanished. There was a brief period around January, February, when a bit of female charm and stimulation was provided, in their stead, by RavRav, who was in the Tinychat about once a day. But then she moved to London and got a life - given to her, incidentally, by the current moderator of Crackyhouse, Kimi - so she hasn't been seen or heard from since around February either.
That pretty much left Lia as the only potential "love interest" in the Crackyverse. Let's face it, nobody wants a sausage fest (well, maybe some of you "monkish" types do, but that's another thing that puts a gulf between you and I).
It sounds pretty sad and sleazy to say that this was the point when I began to find Lia interesting, both on a personal and a sexual level - like I'm the sort of creep who can develop an "infatuation" with just about anyone who happens to be around, and switch the "infatuation" over to another girl when that one isn't around any more.
Well, maybe I'm not as far removed as I wish I were from being indeed just that sort of creep, but I'll say in my defence - and in a way in Lia's defence too - that when, at the beginning of this year, she and I fnally began to chat on MSN and so on, I DID begin to understand, to an extent, "what all the fuss had been about" among the "Lia Gang". I was surprised by how articulate and witty she was, and noticed for the first time, when she sent me a recent photo of herself, that she also really isn't a bad-looking girl at all. (She had rightly surmised that I wasn't into that Lolita wig-and-nail-extension bullshit at all, and the photo she sent me was of her looking very sober and student-y and, as I say, really rather attractive).
I can't and won't deny that we were pretty "close" for a couple of months there, around March / April. We got a very pleasant sort of sado/maso role-play game going for a few weeks, with her pretending to elicit promises from me that I was going to stop giving money to RavRav and start giving money to her instead and me pretending to actually give those promises.
I suppose one factor in things going rather sour between us in the past few months is that Lia probably wasn't actually "pretending" at all there. It seems she actually seriously BELIEVED that she was going to be the one who was going to get, from now on, the regular Paypal payments that I've been making to RavRav for years. A ridiculous idea, of course. Lia's a fairly pretty girl with certain appealng and attractive qualities, but RavRav is - for just about anyone, I think - in a different league of attractiveness altogether. And certainly FOR ME there is just no contest there. As soon as I got some more money, I gave it to RavRav and will ALWAYS give any excess income at my disposal ONLY to her, assuming she permits or requires it.
I'd bet my life, incidentally, that Lia's sudden concern a couple of weeks ago about "preventing RavRav's life from being ruined", and the "mission of mercy" she performed by writing to God knows who about my having done certain things to hurt her (things, of course, which I hadn't done and would never do), were not motivated by any actual worry about RavRav's well-being but rather solely by Lia's wish to do all she could to make sure that - if SHE's not going to get any of my money - RavRav sure as hell won't get any more of it either. If she's writing lying e-mails to her saying that I'm tryng to get her thrown off her course, that certainly isn't because she gives a damn how RavRav does or doesn't make a living. It's only because she wants to make relations between RavRav and I impossible so she doesn't have to sit there seething with envy all day over RavRav's profiting from someone she herself wasn't attractive enough to profit from.
This habit of spreading lies about people to soothe her own jealousy and vanity would have been enough in itself, of course, to lower Lia considerably in my opinion and rid me of any mild attraction and affection I felt for her. But my problem with the whole "Lia Thing" on Crackyhouse at the moment is, of course, much wider than that. The poor girl is deeply attention-starved and narcissistic to a degree that's unusual even in 4chan cam-whores and Jeff's and Kimi's decision to cynically exploit her in whatever agenda they're pursuing over there at the moment has tipped her right over the edge. Jeff just has to wind her up with a Skype message or a once-annual Cracky post and she'll go running on all year like a headless chicken, filling the board up with her silly personal obsessions like this Luka Magnotti fantasy of hers and calling it "the Crackyverse". As we know, I don't give a shit about Cracky, but it DOES kind of get my goat to see her and her five or six trained morons regurgitating whatever nonsense she's put at the top of that week's regurgitation menu and then congratulating themselves on being "Crackyfags".