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Nah, the misspelling was a genuine mistake. I bang this stuff off pretty quickly. THE WORLD MUST KNOW THE TRUTH!!
And yeah, well, I've never really known what is "to my best advantage", and still show the foresight and planning of a 14-year-old even at age 53.
Whether I could afford a real, "hands-on" sugar-Daddy arrangement with the kind of girl who would put the butterflies in my stomach that this old stomach still appears to crave...that I seriously doubt.
I earn tolerably well, but a girl like RavRav, if she wanted actually to rent herself out as ARM- as opposed to merely EYE-candy - and a girl like Dolly as well - could, I would guess easily demand hundreds of dollars/euros/pounds a night, and get it too, from any one of hundreds of men.
THAT, I'm afraid, would be beyond my means - and I see no point in settling for less. I'd rather squat outside in the cold smelling the fumes that rise through the ventilation grilles of the kitchen at Le Meurice than sit down to a "slap-up meal" of what my local Wendyburger has to offer me.
I can't, though, imagine that there WASN'T a much more erotically expedient way of spending the approximately thousand pounds Sterling I have given to RavRav and Kimi - in exchange for nothing; not a word, not a glimpse of flesh - in the past two months alone.
Still, maybe that is what my life is about: resistance to the ugly value of "expediency" in all its forms.
Houellebecq again (one of my personal heroes)
"If you do not date women (whether through shyness, ugliness, or for some other reason), read women’s magazines. You will experience suffering that is almost equivalent. Go right to the bottom of the absence of love. Cultivate self-hatred. Hatred of oneself, contempt for others. Hatred of others, contempt for oneself. Mix it all up. Form a synthesis. In the tumult of life, always be the loser. The universe is like a discotheque. Accumulate frustrations in great number. To learn to become a poet is to unlearn how to live."