I had forgotten about her.
Stay the fuck away from psychedelics.
600ug of LSD threw me into a delusion and I felt her. I was completely catatonic. A low oscillation, a warm breeze. I could feel her. The spirits fought over me. I lay suspended in space whispering her name for an hour. I believed I was on the edge of some unknown paradigm and she would manifest.
The trip moved sideways into hyperspace with such intensity there is no language to describe it. I thought I had died. All time was folding in on itself.
It ended with a seizure and 3 days curled up in bed absolutely terrified.