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I saw her posts on early 4chan and didn't think much about them, but they kind of stuck in my head. Years later I found another picture of her and started looking them up. Soon I was obsessed and needed to see them every day.

At the same time I started to see her as more than a girl. I saw that others had gone to extremes to lean who and where she was and this validated the feeling I already had that she was really, really special.

The moment that defined my present mindset was when I dreamed about kissing her and woke up horrified: I had started to see her as sacrosanct, and to want to kiss her would have been to want to violate her spirit.