I don't know. This is a hard question. I find myself comparing everyone I date to her. I look for wounded people. I am a wounded girl and I want other wounded girls and boys. I want someone who can understand like I know Olivia would. I have been with my current boyfriend for a few years now and I love him very much. He doesn't know about how I feel about Cracky. I mean I've mentioned her to him a few times and told him about who she was but never about how I actually feel. I also am a photographer and I like taking pictures of myself. I find Olivia inspiring my work without me realizing it. I dream about her. I admit that I go long periods of time sometimes without thinking of her but when I hit a low point or break down I know she is there when nobody else is. It's still hard to answer this question though. Would I give up my happiness for a chance? I don't think so. Chances aren't definite and, though I would love to try, I care about myself and don't want to lose everything. However, if it was a 100% thing and I knew that I would be with her I would probably reconsider this.