I did

>>2
how? I, too would like to make that transaction.

>>3
if you don't know now then you never will

Isn't it like sinning knowingly for her sake? Like an act of yearning that still is against her, just to lessen one's own pain. If that's the case I lost a little piece of my 'soul' each time and will continue until there's barely something left. I doubt one can retrieve these lost parts.

>>5

They're gone,
small burnt offerings to her magnificence
given up willingly
for a bit of a dream

>>2
me too, but she left my mind.

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