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>please don't give up
But sometimes you do. Even it doesn't lead to something catastrophic. I find myself saying fuck it and just stop thinking, stop feeding my introspection, stop creating this outline of somebody and just live subserviently ie get with the next poor girl who's just as desperate as you are or even worse - which I think is on par with putting a bullet in your head.
That leads me to think of how predisposed I am to manufacturing an ideal to somebody especially with me being a part of this fucking thing right here. Am I like this because of Cracky or is the reason why I found Cracky was because I am simply me?