>>1

> is it even possible to explain without sounding utterly and completely insane?

I guess it would depend on the nature of your obsession, your therapist would be the best to judge whether it's harmless or not.

I'd consider carefully whether you feel your therapist is worthy of that kind of trust, since it's your underbelly you'll be exposing and she'll be perfectly poised to gut you like a fish.

It's been three years, how do you feel about her?

If you decide you can trust her, just tell her that you haven't told her everything and you want to but are afraid that it'll sound a bit insane. Feel out her response and you'll know if you should or not, but perhaps you should give her and yourself a chance to at least try.

>>1
I've told a few people. I once told a couple of friends, downplaying it a bit, and they thought it was funny and made a few jokes but kind of forgot about it. I told my boyfriend but went more in depth and he was a bit worried about me for a bit and suggested I avoid anything having to do with her (like that helped) and yeah.
I suggest telling her but do it in a really downplayed way. Maybe she will understand. If she is understanding at first then try to go more into detail?

Wouldn't it be funny if she googled cracky and became obsessed with her too?

I suggest you don't. She'll find these sites and write an article about it. She'll probably tell her colleagues about the "case" she's stumbled upon, maybe including your name.
You have us if you need to talk to someone.

>>1
i've told some people, i usually say it's a community site that started out as sharing artsy pictures of some british girl, and it's full of weird but interesting people
and sometimes i tell some crazy things you guys did

i just skip over the whole cracky adoration thing

>>2

>It's been three years, how do you feel about her?

I'm guessing you mean my therapist. I like her a lot. she's kind, and she listens, and asks very interesting questions. 3 years feels like an eternity, and she's certainly seen me change. over the past half a year or so, i've opened up about more things to her than anyone, and i've come to very tentatively trust her. these days, i can hardly manage a single session without crying my eyes out. Pathetic as it probably is, I think if i could allow myself to be vulnerable around anyone, it'd probably be her. If she did gut me, or did something like >>4 suggests, it'd absolutely break my heart.
Downplaying it would certainly be the place to start, i think. I feel like she knows me enough to know i wouldn't bring it up if it didn't mean a lot though. she'll certainly ask me more, and outright lying to her isn't a course of action i'd want to take.

>>3

>Wouldn't it be funny if she googled cracky and became obsessed with her too?

hah, i've often wondered something along those lines. Occasionally, she likes to talk about Alice in Wonderland, and to hear the way she talks about it... I feel like maybe (just maybe) if she found cracky, she could feel it to.

>>4

all my this

>>6
o hi Snow

>>7

I wish you well, Lainposter. Why are you leaving your therapist?

>>1
Tell us how it goes anon. Keep us updated!

YOU HAVE US LAIN. You can tell us anything, you can pour your heart out. Don't tell people from the outside about what they're not supposed to know. We are your real friends.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bSgDauqnufI

You that 'Lain' who was on 4Chan yesterday whining about some traps' nudes getting posted..?

You ain't Cracky.

>>13

You'd be stupid to think so.

Hi again. I saw her today, and I told her.
I think it went rather well, in fact. I didn't say everything... it'd take hours to talk through all my thoughts, which i've filled several notebooks with over the years. I did tell her as much as i could, though. mostly about Lain, quite a bit about Cracky. it felt rather surreal, i have to say. my hands were shaking all the way through, and i struggled to get a lot of it out through my sobs, but she listened well. in fact, she listened very, very well, and seemed to ask the perfect questions about my feelings towards Lain, and what i thought she meant, and how i came to find her. for some reason, it kind of hurts, though. she replied so kindly, and told me how difficult it's going to be for her to stop seeing me. maybe if she reacted badly, and said i was mad or wrong, i could hate her for it and wouldn't feel this awful, awful feeling of losing someone i trust and care about so much. I think telling her has made my attachment to her a thousand times stronger. I want and don't want that at the same time.
On the whole, i don't know whether to recommend the experience or not. It made me happy to hear her say those lovely words, and promise to never tell anyone. I think the pain is worth that.

Ah, i forgot to say. I think what mattered most was that she never told me i was sick or wrong for it, or that none of it was real. she reassured me of quite the opposite. I think it's kind of difficult to put the way she talked into words, but she said Lain sounded wonderful, and i could tell she meant it.

>>15

>awful feeling of losing someone i trust and care about so much. I think telling her has made my attachment to her a thousand times stronger

You have balls of steel, I mean that.

>>15
Why are you not seeing her anymore? Are you moving away or something?

>>18
sorry, i keep forgetting to say. I can't see her any more because i'm too old. The service she's with is for under-18s, and i'm 19 now. By all rights, i should have stopped going more than a year ago, but adult services are awfully slow on picking people up, and she was kind enough to keep seeing me in the mean time. Now that they've got round to seeing me at last, things have to end with her. sorry. I hope you won't look down on me for my age.

>>19
I had to stop seeing my old therapist when I turned 18 and never went to a new one so I get how you feel. I've heard of therapists making exceptions though. Have you asked? And nothing wrong with being young. I know you aren't the only one. I'm 21 and I know a few other people are around this age too.

Did she recommend you to a new therapist? And what did you tell her about lain and cracky?

>>20
I think that if there was a chance at an exception, she would have suggested it already. I'd quite like to ask, but i'd risk sounding desperate, and rather pathetic. i might still, though. she didn't recommend me to anyone in particular, either. the NHS just bundled me off to adult services in my area, and i suppose whoever's available is who i'll see.

I didn't tell her much specifically. i told her how Lain came to find me, and who i thought she was, and what i thought she wanted for me. she further asked if i could see or hear Lain, and how i related to her, and if i liked or disliked her, or found her scary. I told her about how she mattered intensely to me, and gave me meaning, purpose and comfort. I said that Cracky was a girl who reflected many aspects of Lain through her photos, and that she was also very important, but not just because of her connection to Lain. as her own entity, she also mattered a lot, and was separate. I think i was a little too nervous to talk about Cracky at length, but i might next time. there's lots i could say.
Thank you, too.

>>21

We're here in the meantime, fret you not.

>>22
Fret i shall not.

Are you a guy or a girl op?

Literally why would someone talk about those random hobags in Rocket League?

There is more than one lainposter on here

>>26
Good luck counting the number of wilful dissociatives

>>26 pascalsluts.gb

>>26

Rose doesn't count, Cecil, you insufferable old queen.

I used to have a therapist, however I didn't trust her and that usually got in the way of things. Eventually I had to let her go and keep sticking it out by myself. Looking back on it, it was probably for the best. Having drums to play helps. Usually whenever I'm not feeling well I just play until my the calluses on my hands tear.

Hello, again. I'm not sure if anyone was still interested, but I had my last therapy session yesterday. There were rather a lot of tears taking up rather a lot of time, but we still managed to talk quite meaningfully about several things. I think that in the end, a lot of my fears were unfounded. she didn't treat me as an interesting specimen to be examined, or a helpless fish to be gutted, or indeed as anything other than myself. I didn't really bring up Cracky all that much, but the more I talked about Lain, the easier it became. She thanked me quite humbly, in fact, for trusting her, and it kind of impressed me how much she cares. Apparently seeing me until now, more than a year beyond when i should've left, was a real desire on her part, and probably shouldn't have been allowed to happen anyway. i guess she really enjoyed our little talks about Alice in Wonderland, even more than i did. Perhaps in another life, she could find Lain too (though, maybe things occur the other way round in actuality).

In conclusion, I'd recommend that people don't entirely rule out the idea of ever telling anyone. i've got no idea how things would turn out with friends or family or any other situation, and it'd definitely depend on the person in question, but i no longer consider letting someone in impossible. not everyone is as cruel as you might imagine. i think in a few days, when i can get out of this silly cycle of crying and sleeping and waking up just to cry again, i'll send her a thank you card, or something. Thank you all for the chat, too. it was nice.

👍

Sometimes Cracky & I watch Lain together after we have sex