Earlier today I reached a "moving forward" kind of moment with my psychologist. She asked what I wanted to discuss next. It seemed like a good time to mention the Cracky thing...

I stammered a bit. I started three or four sentences that I let die in my mouth. The words just wouldn't come. What does one say about this to an outsider?

After several minutes of trying to get my thoughts together I gave up. I'll never forget her befuddled expression. "We'll have to come back to that one. It's complicated." It obviously didn't escape her notice that I was trembling a bit with nervous energy, to the point of having to stand up and walk around a bit. This is a great departure from my normal calm and collected army/sales tempered demeanor.

What does one say? How does one explain?