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94090 No.1   [Reply]

It's far from fine. Nothing that causes you to be upset is fine. I'm not fine. What does "fine" even mean? Satisfactory? Average? Okay? Or just good in comparison to how it was?

Not once, and I mean not once have I seriously considered leaving you. I can't even think of it without feeling like shit. On the bus, when I got the impression that you were thinking such things - it was a strong impression - I was lost beyond hope. I didn't say a word to you because any speech I began to attempt was flattened by the shakiness in my throat, and I know I would have cried from the first sentence.

The trouble with trying to explain these things is that you have your own ideas so deeply imbedded in your mind that I know fully well you don't believe me at all. About what?

Well, I don't doubt that you believe me about the leaving school thing. You should know that I almost certainly would have this year if I was still alone. I had no reason not to. No reason to bother. No reason to leave the house. No reason to look to the future. No reason to be alive. Indeed even if I had stayed I probably would have left even sometime throughout this year, if there was no you. You are the only thing that keeps me going. Motivated. The only thing.

Moving out - I didn't give a shit about that beforehand. I was scared of it! Now it's an ambition, because the thought of waking up next to you every morning is incredible. The thought of being around you all day. The thought of having you there when I get home. How can I describe those thoughts? Mindblowing? Heavenly? Overwhelming?

If you asked me to, I would drop everything. If it came to it and you really did leave at the end of 5th, you should know as well as I do that I would have too. If you want me to leave now, I will. If you want me to stay to 6th, I will. No real objections. No serious questions. You tell me, and I will.

I'm not doing this very well because I can't truly articulate my feelings towards you. You have enriched my life so much more than you can imagine. You have entered abruptly and challenged everything I thought I knew about how I was going to live. I always had in mind that I'd live and die alone. Now what I'm certain of is that I'll die alone if you leave me. No one... no one could ever replace or improve upon what you've given to me in the past year. I have so much to thank you for. So, so much. For giving me... confidence, purpose, reason to live, happiness, meaning... someone simply to talk to, to admire and appreciate(!). Just... everything. You are all that makes me happy. Everything else just simply occupies my time... I could live without it. All of it. Music, the internet, the vidja, literature... all my passions... I could throw them away, abandon them in an instant for you.

You weren't annoying me. I was annoying myself. Yes, I'm a fucking idiot for the moodiness. Why do I do it? If I knew that I'd stop it. It just happens. I get an idea - a tiny, little idea because it's always about tiny, little things - and it just won't leave my head, won't stop irritating me. I loathe it. And I will stop it eventually. I know I will, before you get so sick of it you stop it for me by saying goodbye... and whether that's exaggerating or not, I know that you have been getting sick of it recently. Very sick of it. Oh, I don't know... I really don't... you're the last person I should be moody with. Ever. The thing is, you shouldn't have to put up with it. And I am very worried you'll soon realise that.

Coveted seraph - Laura - you are everything to me. Take that in earnest. There has never been one thing in my life more precious than you. My life itself isn't as precious as you. Though my actions recently haven't shown it, and though I don't expect you to believe it, I love you unconditionally... truly unconditionally... I love you with an intensity that I can barely control... and that will never change. I'd love you if you stopped giving a fuck about me. So please. I'm sorry. I am really sorry. For everything I've ever done to even slightly upset you. I detest myself for it and will constantly strive to cease it. Believe me. I wouldn't have kept you from going home today if I didn't care so much about making sure you were okay. As you read this you can be certain I'm still worrying and thinking about you, whilst reflecting on how stupid I am for taking you for granted. I love you and I'm sorry.

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>> No.13  

I find that the older I get the more I put up with. Do you think it's an age thing or have I just reached the point where life has worn me down so much I just don't care.

What ever happened to Daisuke, or Necrolich for that matter?

>> No.14  


I'd agree in some ways. I'm more tolerant of different views due to more life experience. Maybe it's how you're treated going in as a PV. The talking down to, etc. I'm not sure I'd cope with it as well. You're used to it at that age but you get older and get a decent paying job you've climbed the ranks of, you have more self respect, if that means anything here.

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Yep, she seems to have emasculated me.


Thanks. I sort of fucked up a bit early today, but afterwards it ended up great.


Uuuh... yep!

>> No.16  

A manifesto of bitching is fine too.

No.1   [Reply]

Boredom and loneliness, with a complete lack of social skills.

>> No.2  

goodnight internets, another glorious day of logic gates awaits on the far side.

I love you all.
Yes even you Tony, you magnificent bastard.

No.1   [Reply]

Rob I've been meaning to ask for a while but seeing as how everyone seems to have a pet board and gary deleted EoS a few days before the latest .71death, could we have a electronics board?
Not like consumer electronics but a place for me to dump my schematics and discuse theory, application, and Boolean Algebra?

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>> No.9  


Boolean Algebra fails when applied to the empirical Universe. In Boolean, there is no degrees. In the Universe, there are always degrees or dimensions of something. There's always a gray scale, nothing is entirely one or the other. Quantum physics has come to show us this.

The Universe, just when we always think we have it figured out, it's one step ahead of us.

>> No.10  

Science is just a model, if approximations turn out to be close enough to reality to be useful then we use them. We don't even know if "constants" like G really are across the whole universe, but it works for sending probes to Mars etc.

>> No.11  


No shit?

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491654 No.1   [Reply]

Let's be more pretentious.

>> No.2  

This drug addicted rave-slut, being the dumbest person I ever spent any considerable time with, was a big xkcd fan. Always linking me comics and always with the foyerchan mehms.

I never bothered to read it, since it's an established rule that you can judge something by its fanbase and so obviously the comic is about retards raving.

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>> No.2  

So that's what Cleopatra's Needle looks like.

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57177 No.1   [Reply]

If I make it to page 2 I'll be a FREE man.

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Uh uh

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Escaped again but didn't get far.

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>> No.13  

Anyone game to upload some Prussian Blue to Ether?

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39513 No.1   [Reply]

Cracky + Suede

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stand by

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How odd, this one turned out to be an almost exact clone of Cracky & Suede's. I'm starting to suspect this may just be a cheap ploy to sell Minivans and oh god how I want one of those things.

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Cracky + Loli


>> No.18  

<3 it's got my mouth

I'm prepared to make this happen. Someone IM the Avatar and tell her to put down the spoofer, I'm moist and wanting.

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9538 No.1   [Reply]

How's everyone doing?

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>> No.55  

What do you do when you can do anything? I felt sick and empty, filling my life with mindless self gratification. Alcohol, sex and the purile mental masturbation of anonymous posting where how I squandered my days.
During a particularly long bender my redheaded fucktoy d'jour talked me into proposing and convinced me to enlist.

Basic reintroduced me to a prospective I hadn't seen in a long time. Soberiety, rigourous and regular physical exercise, and most importantly power tripping souless faggots.

>> No.56  

Something I've actually considered before. But what about those of us who are both too old & too fat?

>> No.57  


flash forward six months

I cherish the few moments of real freedom I get a day. I had the time to think about what I realy want out of life and am working towards it. I also saw though "MUH DURLN'S" pathetic attempts to get me killed and get my precious jew golds and kicked her ass back to the trailer court that spawned her.

Life is better now. Direction, goals, and the knowledge that in 5 years 6 months and 5 days till I am master of my own destiny.

>> No.58  

I had a 48 year old guy in basic with me and he made it. As to being out of shape. You won't be after basic. Wether you stay in shape after that is on you. Fair warning, military life sucks, but you will never be lonely, and there are a rediculous number of anons in the combat MOSs. Don't I repeat DON'T belief anything your recruiter says, and always read the fine print.

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76300 No.1   [Reply]

pass: chanchan


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>> No.18  

I bet she's a heartbreaker back home

>> No.19  

I bet the is an outcast IRL. I can tell because of the camwhoring and internet BF.

>> No.20  

no you lie only sane people worship Cracky

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No.1   [Reply]

How you doing Mero?

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>> No.8  

Dear merovin, and other possibly interested persons. Today there's 'i love techno', which is like 'sensation', but more faggy.
Some radio is streaming it live. http://mp3.streampower.be/stubru-high

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The reflections in the sign are amazing. She has a real knack for sharp geometrical details and light. Somehow the images seem to lack scale and depth, they look a bit like miniature models.

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Is this a boy or a girl?

  1. Boy:


2. Girl:

3. WIPO:

Pic related

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The scientific method triumphs again. You should have kissed an inanimate object too as a control, though.

>> No.7  

Way ahead of you. I kissed Rob as a control.

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I lol'd.

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