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Something like that, but rather than being addicted to certain activities in and of themselves, I'm more addicted to not getting anything done, in the sense that if any of my "vices" are taken away, I feel no withdrawal, I just reallocate the time to some other useless pursuit, and there's always something. Worst case scenario, say the power's out, so no computer or internet or video games or television, too dark to read, and I'm fapped out... I'll just stare at the darkness and scream at myself in frustration at not taking the opportunity to do anything. Sometimes I'll call in sick to work, hoping to spend the day getting shit together, and I'll just waste it, and be not better off, just poorer. I'll pass up social opportunities or requests to visit my family because I'm always convinced I'm just a day away from starting to get it all together, and I can't let anything get in my way of my agenda. I'm always making complex schedules & todo lists, I started about 11 years ago, and I hardly ever follow them at all. I know what I want to do and I'm good at putting it all down on paper & figuring out how I can get it all done... but then I figure out I could put everything off a day just by rearranging things a bit, then I rearrange & compress the schedules more and more, creating increasingly high expectations for myself, and deadlines pass with nothing done. And I can't accept "middle ground", I have to do everything all or nothing, either obsessively to perfection or not even bother trying. I'm even averse to playing video games anymore, except for ones of limited scope, because I feel compelled to map out every little possibility, find every limit and plot wall, before moving even another inch; the idea of playing one of those open-ended nonlinear Morrowind or Fallout-type games where it's literally impossible to do everything is my worst nightmare, I'd rather die than play one of those. And life is the most open-ended nonlinear game of all.