actually i went out to a local "couchsurfing meetup" had some social moments, there were a bunch of people, maybe 15+. Talked with an america, n, some germans, a french. Was not bad choice to go there. On the way back home i saw a lot of girls with spiderweb painted on their face
>>3420 I sometimes think that the World Wide Web is really no wider than the walls of our dirty NEET bedrooms and studio apartments because et in Socremixia ego and imagine my horror when Dolly turned up - but doesn't she turn up everywhere? The chatroom itself has not been worth visiting for about a year now but it.....oh fuck I'll come back to this
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>>3425 Resist THE URGE: I wanted... hold on... auto text thingy. Forget this, I'll start over... geez...
Resist the urge to try to come back with the intentions of fraternizing, This community is by definition toxic and should be avoiding; it's not the members, but the topic. I wanted to delete the chat a while ago but thought that would have been a dick move.
>>3429 Who's this? Elyrona? If it is, you should be aware that I don't, personally, suffer from any such caplocked URGE as you refer to, and most particularly not from any URGE related to "the topic", by which I suppose you mean Cracky. Cracky never interested me. Only some of the female Crackyfags did. Maybe it was for this reason that the little chat between Science, Lia and I last night didn't strike me as at all toxic, though it really wasn't all that thrilling or exciting either. I think the two or three of you who really do suffer from a religious-pathological, "monkish" relation to the "Cracky thing" - but do you really "suffer from" it, or is it just a bored affectation? - tend to recreate the other people who have wandered in and out of this circle in your own image. Speaking for myself, I have 99 problems but accepting that "the past is the past" isn't one of them. On the contrary, for me, all the beauties of the "Cracky community" have consisted in its evanescence and porosity to other swathes and stages of experience. There is something in me that can relate, I suppose, to the pathos of "early adolescence forever frozen in amber" that seems to fascinate the genuine Crackyfag so much, though - being a Germanophile and having much better taste in poetry than the rest of you - I feel that Rilke caught all that better than your tediously regurgitated Swinburne, with his lines For poet you must always maiden be Even though his eyes the woman in you wake Wedding brocade your fragile wrists would break, Mysterious, elusive, from him flee.
Within his garden let him wait alone Where benches stand expectant in the shade Within the chamber where the lyre was played Where he received you as the eternal One.
Go! It grows dark—your voice and form no more His senses seek; he now no longer sees A white robe fluttering under dark beech trees Along the pathway where it gleamed before.
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But speaking for myself, poet or not - I'm sure most of you would say decidedly "not" - the last thing I'd want would be for the Cracky girls to "always be maidens". Nor do I suffer from any serious apprehensions as to the fate of their wrists. That they were ONCE "maidens", of course, is an essentially part of the beauty and pathos that they will always retain for me. But an even more essential part of their beauty and pathos is that their maidenhood is now becoming part of the past and giving way to womanhood. For some, that is surely a more triumphal progress and transcendence than it is for others. Camel the young woman is definitely someone who offers "more to love" - and not in the jokey BBW sense - than Camel the girl. For the Cracky girls who have decided to make a living as sex-workers I fear that the reverse might be true, though that might just be the old fogey in me talking. And for one at least - the one who was closest to my heart and most damaging to my bank balance - the question is maybe still undecided. Will her "Garden of Promise" be one in which she stays sitting, vacant and akimbo, until the girlish beauty which was all that gained her admittance to it, fades and she is turned out into a cold and barren world? Or was there really some "promise" there in the beautiful, vivacious young girl that one still sees in screencaps from Stickam 2008 that will be realized and fulfilled in a wiser and deeper young woman of 2018 or beyond? But whether there was, and will be, or wasn't, and won't, the pathos of the story of the "Cracky community" consists, for me, as I say, in the way it was always open and porous to the (consummating or catastrophic) future. More than Swinburne and more even than Rilke, it is Proust who proves again to be the poet of the "community", inasmuch as he has written of how time enough were allotted to me to accomplish my work, I would not fail to mark it with the seal of Time, the idea of which imposed itself upon me with
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sorry, damn posting system, the quote is If time enough were allotted to me to accomplish my work, I would not fail to mark it with the seal of Time, the idea of which imposed itself upon me with so much force to-day, and I would therein describe men, if need be, as monsters occupying a place in Time infinitely more important than the restricted one reserved for them in space, a place, on the contrary, prolonged immeasurably since, simultaneously touching widely separated years and the distant periods they have lived through—between which so many days have ranged themselves—they stand like giants immersed in Time.
Oh and to complete the total fuck-up of my foolish attempt to post something coherent and meaningful on an image-board designed for throwaway nonsense, here is the image I was alluding to in the post before last, of a certain former Cracky cosplayer in her "Garden of Promise"
>>3436 Yes, I'm quite aware, of course, that none of that was up to the standard of all the rich and varied content that has accumulated on this board during the six months that I DIDN'T post. Or in other words, sorry, but - quick on the draw as you might be with your smug little downloaded quips, I'm afraid it has been proven in practice what the "Crackyverse" is without me. Namely, nothing. So now you've done your little
>>3429 It is toxic. There's a direct correlation between how involved I am with this community and the fucked up things I end up doing. It's easy to think you're at arms length and it's back to being a big joke when you're still prone to internalizing all of this insanity.
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>>3440 i barely interacted with this community for the last 3 months, mainly because it's dead, but i just
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more lonely
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>>3441 Yeah be too, I actually like the idea to keep this site for non-holy cracky things, but man others make it really hard to participate. With the tl;dr barrage special attacks, the insults, the weird reply system, and so on, no wonder nobody comes here.
I know you like it your way, Ely, and I'm sorry to keep complaining, but I can't help myself. Thanks for keeping this place open though.
>>3443 At least this is a lot more salvageable than .71 is. That place is past the point of no return.
Then again we have alex and that dude's creepy ass needs to go.
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>>3445 That Will never happen, everyone has been expecting for the mods of every cracky-related website to man up and do it but it just won't happen. Shame really.
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>>3446 He HAS been banned before. The problem is that he keeps running out of money and moving house, or running away from the police and fleeing the country, or sleeping on some nigger's couch, so his IP keeps changing.
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>>3447 Well, that is at least the 'problem' with the idea of banning Laex. I don't know if Alex is actuallyy the problem. I expect that he is not.
